I didn’t really plan on a month-long hiatus for this weblog, but days stretched into weeks, and so on.
It’s not as if I didn’t have anything to write about during February. In fact, quite often, when I was alone with my thoughts, I scripted elaborate posts in my mind’s eye. However, for various reasons, I chose not to record these compositions, and in time these intricate weavings of words lost coherence and drifted away.
Being alone with my thoughts seems to be the norm these days. It just seems unnatural for me to open up to anyone, even semi-anonymously.
…I look at myself, at my life. Rarely does a person’s existence live up to their own expectations. Yet I wonder how long I can continue drifting along the same currents. Sometimes it feels like I’m kicking up a storm, arms flailing wildly about, yet I make little forward progress, and those times I do travel any measurable distance, the tide rolls back in, and I find myself back where I started.
Something drastic has to change. Who, what, when, or how? I really don’t know right now.
Anyway, I doubt that posts to this site will resume any sort of consistent schedule. I am certain that March will see a few more posts than this single entry; however, I don’t imagine that I will draft an entry more than once or twice a week, at least for now.
Something drastic has to change. Who, what, when, or how? I really don’t know right now.
Unfortunately, those questions aren’t always the easiest ones to answers. Sometimes it takes quite a lot of trial and error. The important things are to not get discouraged and to keep trying until you find what you need. (While trying to enjoy the process as much as possible.)
Write when you’re moved to do so…we’ll stil be here!
I have been feeling a bit discouraged lately, but that feeling, like all feelings, eventually fades. Lately, I have felt like my life is full of errors and trials, but there’s always that silver lining, light at the end of the tunnel, insert cliché here.
I guess the best thing to do is take Eric Idle’s advice. I mean—what have I got to lose?
Thanks, Denise. I do believe that I am finally moved to do so.
I am certain that my posting schedule will continue to be sporadic, but I hope to reduce the amount of time in between posts.